The Simplicity of Reality
When I whispered
“Reality, at all costs”
I had no idea of the grief;
of the fantasies that were luring me
out of bed morning after morning,
or of the eerie spaciousness
when illusions dissipate like smoke.
I had no idea I would grow so weary of my words and welcome them washing away with waterfalls.
Or that She would pry me open,
exposing the window of my heart.
She—an iron prop rod,
stubborn, cold, comfortless, irresistible--
digging into my chest, my inner thighs, my arms
and that I would lose my grasp,
my grasping for Truth.
I couldn’t conceive of the
curious cross-eyed hummingbird
who inches from my face
savored sweet blossoming,
or of the aging seal who would
summon me to sit and sink into
a silence I had never known before.
How could I have known
that this deep rest by the sea
would loosen my feet—who know Her
and loosen the wild untrimmable
dancing vines of my heart?
And that after many moons
of tears and scars and caves
I would find myself at the feet
of an ancient stone,
spread eagle in the long grass
being blown into a woven blanket above me,
grasshoppers making love piled triple-high—like soaking in mineral-fire-water--
“It’s this simple”.
Solstice Mitote 2017
I keep asking for nouns
and you answer in verbs.
The last puzzle piece won’t fit.
Oh how I long to meet you
in the field beyond understanding.
Don’t patronize me with a kiss
on my forehead,
answering my questions only to the level
of my consciousness.
I am not laughing.
Take me with you!
I saw my tail last night
I was pulsating, clearing the debris
in front so I could see, at dusk.
Today I am studying the sun
with a flashlight
I want to talk about it with everyone.
It’s so magnificent!
Everyone is studying the sun so no one
feels the fool; no one tastes.
I thought I had evolved—from magic to
literalism to myth to science to metaphor,
and then you call me to literal magic
and I am a child again
and then I hear You call.
All of me wants to run toward you to see,
yet on the double take I am Mirror.
Pondering is tiring.
I can’t be the question anymore.
I want to treasure.
I will meet Me there.